“You look like you are in another world, dear,” my wife said to me as she was letting the dog outside.Today I got it. I may not have it tomorrow, but thank God (or Buddha, or Oneness) for the glimpse every now and again.
This is not a conscious volition of the self (“oh, doesn’t everything look so beautiful today”), it is a tour de force from the Absolute Self. It controls you — that small, egoic body and mind, and gives you a glimpse of the ineffable.
Was it God? Nature’s beauty? Divine Grace? Don’t label it. No, it was none of those “things”, those “concepts” which are all that they are — they are words, and they cannot express the feeling, the power, the radiance, that captivity. And of course all they do is trigger in others their own concepts and biases and guarantee only one thing — you won’t be talking about the same experience.
But here is my epiphany. I saw in that Beauty how the saints (and sinners) felt that they were in God’s presence. That was their metaphor. Appropriate (or not) for the time and place, it is what they Felt, Saw, Heard, Smelled, and even Tasted. Just This. It is what Rumi expresses so well. What Christ had in mind. What my Egyptian friend means when he sees Allah in all things.
Everything connected, with a purpose. Not an individualistic “what is my role in this drama” kind of purpose. That is simply the ego looking for validation or motivation. But an interconnected, holistic, incomprehensibly cosmic, evolutionary purpose. And more than that. A beauty, a harmony, an elegance, a simplicity, a flow.
My eyes may always be open, but they do not always see. The infinite depth, the incredible energy, the simple being. I am convinced I am not special (or if you like, we are ALL special — egos, bah humbug). This moment is there for all of us, and it is always available. At any moment. On any path. How else can so many independent cultures speak so poetically of the Divine. They sensed it, or more. And you can too.
But I think it takes some intention. Not on the goal, for I do not see such a cause and effect (perhaps even the opposite). It takes awareness (not purpose). It takes presence (not activity). It takes openness (not answers). It takes acceptance (not judgment). It takes being (not labeling).
And such intention seems to me to be a glorious way to live, regardless of any cosmic insights.
Thank you for being a partner in this process. It is my intention to share these reflections of beauty that brought me to this point.
(Note: My first epiphany is described here.)